for my Lord Anpu

            Anubis by Jason Engle DiviantArt

….oh and I have walked on glass! Lol, also hot coals and through fire that was high enough that I didn’t have to shave my legs for a while.

I was on a quest.  I needed answers.  My life as a child and adolescent had been drenched in pain. Physical pain was constant and was simply dismissed by doctors because they couldn’t find a cause.  I was a social outcast, bullied constantly.  Moving didn’t help. I blamed myself because given fresh new chances I always blew it.  It never occurred to me that social skills were learned and that I never had an opportunity to learn them.  Adults were as bad as my peers.  There was no kindness, no mercy, and no rescue.  I hated myself and I hated everyone else too, although I tried so hard not to.

Being on the outside looking in you get a very clear picture of human societies. It wasn’t a pretty picture but I held onto hope because you see, I saw things others didn’t, knew things others didn’t.  I knew there was something more, something ancient and powerful and I wanted to know a lot more about it.

There was no internet back then and books on anything outside of the mainstream thinking of the times were hard to find.  I had to wait until I had a job and a car to start my quest in earnest.  My method was simple when an opportunity to learn a religion or a ‘way’ presented itself I took it. When i learned of a group, I sought it out and got as involved as I needed to be to learn their ‘secrets’ suspending disbelief during the process.  I kept moving from this to that because while many groups had pieces of ‘truth’ they all also had a lot of limiting and in my opinion silly beliefs and requirements.  From Christian fundamentalism to Satanism, metaphysical and new age gurus,  Bahais and Hinduism, Golden Dawn and Wicca, I learned a great deal.  I stayed with Wicca, Crawley, and Gurdjieff the longest.  I also studied but never joined The Temple of Set. These last four held the most ‘truth’ in my opinion and I have and still do benefit a great deal from studying them.

I lived in a lot of different places and worked a lot of different jobs.  I pushed myself to go past the limits of my fears.  I have worked as a Psych Tech in a psych hospital, a nurses aid in a nursing home, an electrical apprentice at construction sites, a waitress and a cocktail waitress, bakeries, stores, cash office, and call centers. I’ve lived in houses, condos,  apartments a tent and a hotel.  I’ve dated a millionaire and a lot of poor men. I’ve lived in a city, a tiny town in the country, the suburbs and on the bayou.

I made the decision early on not to have children and kept to it.  I was married and divorced twice.  I loved one husband deeply and I regret very much that I had to end that marriage.  I spent many years trying to avoid it but in the end, his behavior demanded that I kick him out and move on with my life.

So after all I’ve lived through, all I’ve done, all the people I’ve known and all that I have studied hear I am.  56 years old.  I’ve given up a house of my own to move back in with my parents.  My mother has Alzheimer’s and end-stage MS so my father, who is in his 80’s though you wouldn’t guess it, could use the help.  So here I am looking for room for my hundreds of books and all the weird occult stuff  I’ve collected. I am currently working at a call center offline fixing coding on accounts.  I am living near Cassadaga Fl home to psychics and more importantly an excellent spiritual teacher by the name of Don Zanghi.  Go to his class or one of his workshops if go there or live nearby.  He doesn’t teach BS.  No new-age silliness.  We disagree on some points but he won’t steer you wrong.

So did I find the answers I was looking for? Yes.  I didn’t necessarily like them but I found them.  As per Crowley’s hunchbacks and soldiers, every answer leads to more questions pushing one ever further. As per The Tao those who know do not tell and those who tell do not know.  If you want to know you have to experience it yourself.  There is no other way.  I’ve had some mind-blowing experiences.  Some with others to verify but more often alone.  Maybe I’m just crazy?  Could be but if so I’ve got a lot of company. It’s been a long strange trip.  Your mileage will vary. Am I enlightened?  Oh hell no but I know what I know and that is enough.

Anubis has been a presence in my life for the past 30 years but I have only come to really know and love Him in the past decade.  Now I follow His guidance on the remainder of my journey.

He is a great teacher and guide . He is gentle and compassionate yet fiercely protective of His own.  Nothing evil can stand in His presence. His energy simply makes it impossible for evil to approach.  Artists often depict Him as fierce, muscular and heavily armed.  It is accurate to the degree that it shows His protectiveness. Do I really believe in this entity?  No.  I have experienced Him.  If you have not experienced a God why would you think He exists?  I don’t like blind faith.  Experience and knowledge, that is the way to go.

If you want to experience Anubis meditate on Him.  If He comes to you then you will know Him without any doubts.   The old Gods are returning in force and many are claiming devotees. If you think He is calling you the only way to know for certain is to meditate and see if He comes to you.

Blessings now and always in the name of my Sweet Lord Anubis.

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In my last post I spoke of my friend Orion Bailey and his idea to form The Church of Anubis.  Since then the Face Book page for that project has grown to over a hundred members and it is growing daily.

Orion’s ideas have inspired another young man to begin an even more ambitious project.  The Grand Temple of Kemet started by David Brewer is an organization with the goal of building actual physical Temples dedicated to the Worship and service of our Neteru.

Now the Temple shown above may be out of reach but what can we build?  That is a question still unanswered.

Perhaps you have some ideas?

Would you like to be a part of this?

Join us!

Together we can and will re-build Temples

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Love and blessings now and always Anpu’s Crone

An Idea for a Church of Anubis by Orion Bailey

Just an idea that I am throwing around for a Church of Anubis. Also trying to get opinions on how a system of such could be fashioned.

1: Anubis is truth, balance, justice, and the guide of all souls,for their betterment, if so they seek such.

2: Truth, balance, and justice are tangible aspects of the world. Dictating a higher force, an after-life, and/or spirit beings will not be tolerated, but the belief in such will be fully accepted.

3: The world is diverse, which causes evolution of culture, sciences, and governance. Denouncing other people and/or their deities will not be tolerated, as they may have truths which are misunderstood.

4: The purpose of the church is to study, learn, teach, and evolve the aspects which are Anubis. Truth, balance, and justice are what the church serves, in the image of Anubis.

5: Anubis is to be known as a master of all f his followers, but also as a servant to each of them, as well as the whole world. Those who serve truth, balance, and justice, are also they themselves served by them.

6: Roles within the church will be new-comers, followers, “Servants to Anubis”, “The Church Anubis”, and “A Living Anubis”. Servants of Anubis will attend to the needs of the church, and also assist with teaching and studies. The Church Anubis will live within the church, able to open the doors at all hours for those seeking immediate guidance. The Living Anubis’s will be elected as those who keep order between multiple churches, if ever the organization should grow to such a stature.

7: Race, background, gender, sexuality, nationality, and other religious practices will not decide if an individual can, or can not be a follower, Servant to Anubis, Church Anubis, or a Living Anubis. All individuals are welcome to apprentice their way to the top.

8: Each church will have their own set of 13 Servants to Anubis, and 1 Church Anubis. The whole of all churches will appoint or remove 13 individuals as Living Anubis’s, which will be diverse to maintain truth, balance, and justice among the worlds diversity.

9: Once an individual church has at least 42 members, there will be one Church Anubis, and 13 Servants to Anubis. The Approval of 9 Servants to Anubis will be required to appoint or remove a new Servant to Anubis, or Church Anubis.

10: There will be no demonetization, other than what is harmful, and/or self-harmful, either intentional and/or negligible.

11: Understanding and circumstance of truth, balance, and justice evolve with ages. There will be no set in stone doctrines for what truth, balance, and/r justice are.

12: Though the church strives to maintain and teach truth, balance, and justice in the world, there will never be crusades, jihads, inquisitions, and/r witch-hunts supported by the church. Rather they will be seen as being against Anubis.

13: There are to be no sacrifices of flesh, animal, or burden beyond ones comfort and ability. Mutilation of flesh, of human or animal is intentionally harmful. Burden of toil into misery is intentionally harmful.

14: Demanding, or asking of currency from those in the lower class or poverty is restricted. The church will be non-profit with those who are a “Living Anubis” being provided no more than a middle class standard of living for their nation, encouraging to raise followers out of poverty and the lower class, and to raise the standard of living for their communities outside of the church.

15: There will be a weekly church service of an evening on Wednesdays, being the middle of the week to represent balance. Each church can choose to have more services.

16: Though all sexualities are accepted, the church will maintain a non-sexual environment. Servants of Anubis are allowed their own private sex lifestyle. The Church Anubis’s and Living Anubis’s are required to always present an image of truth, balance, and justice in a non-sexual manner, except in their private chambers.

17: Churches will do what they can to provide homeless shelters, food drives, medical assistance, and disaster relief for those in need. During charity, all members involved with the charity are required to never dictate, preach, push, or mention the church. Pushing religion through charity is exploitation.

18: No image or preaching of deities other than Anubis are to be shared in church, except in mention to festivals or events. This is meant to prevent pushing other religions on members. Optional services other than the weekly service n Wednesday can be arranged to include other deities alongside of Anubis.

19: All rituals, festivals, and ceremonies of Anubis will either be for teaching historical ways of serving him, through reenactment, or new ways of how to create, serve, and or cause Anubis in the world. These will not be held on the weekly service. The church will neither pronounce, nor denounce the existence of magic, until it is either proven true or false. Other deities may be involved with these.

20: The ultimate truths, balances, and justices are ever-evolving, and will always be beyond human comprehension, no matter how advanced and/or evolved humanity becomes. Followers are encouraged to be ever-humble and ever-modest, in service to Anubis, never stating they know the absolute will of Anubis. Those claiming to literally be Anubis, or have divine inspiration from Anubis should be treated as any other ordinary individual.

21: Blind faith is discouraged by the church. All members are asked to learn, question, and teach truth, balance, and justice, evolving them further.

22: The church will never claim to be the one true religion, of the one true god. Anubis encompasses the whole of all truths, balances, and justices. Diversity is encouraged for growth and evolution of Anubis.

23: All forms of self-destruction, self-harm, self-mutilation, destruction, harm, and/or mutilation which are irreversible, are to be considered Apophis, to be resolved, over-come, or innovated beyond. Body-modifications such as piercing and tattooed are acceptable if one desire them.

24: Weekly confessions of how one has lived outside of truth, balance, and/or justice should be available, for the intent of providing personal guidance. Servants of Anubis, the Church Anubis’s, and Living Anubis’s are restricted from sharing with others what is confessed, now matter the circumstance. The confession is to remain between the confessor and the one confessed to alone, punishable by removal from service for five years. No exceptions. Churches may chose to have confessions more often.

25: Followers should be encouraged to never wish suffering, misery, and/or damnation on anyone. Rather they should wish them the knowledge and wisdom to live in truth, balance, and justice, righting the wrongs they have done, and becoming more alike Anubis.

26: Followers should be encouraged to cause life to be more pleasurable, with less suffering, for themselves and all others equally, within truth, balance, and justice.

27: Non-believers, blasphemers, those who work against Anubis, and those who claim to be an anti-Anubis should be respected for challenging truth, balance, and justice as it is understood. Followers should be encouraged to seek new truths, balances, and justices, to contribute knowledge and wisdom to the church.

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There is nothing Grim about Him

Artists paint Him decked in gold and jewels.  Wearing beautifully  embroidered cloths 

There He stands in Naked magnificence

Glossy black fur, pointed jackal ears, body of a man, face of a dog.

Eyes that glow deepest black or kaleidoscope colors

A laugh that tickles inside of you moving in sleek thick energy from head to toe.

He speaks but not in words.

He will send you bubble of thought containing images, feeling, words and more …more than you can understand.

You tell Him your worries, thoughts and fears

His presence envelopes you warm, dark with the fullness of eternity, closer than any lover, safe, kind, gentil, strong.

Take me with you please I say

“Not Yet” always His reply

Guide of souls

Initiator

Ancient

Kind

Why are you here? Why do you care?

Warm laughter caresses

He sends a familiar image

I am a cat and He picks me up by the scruff of the neck shakes me just a little bit and laughing puts me down.

No there is nothing Grim about this Reaper

My Lord my Guide my friend

I am His

And I have no fear of Him

Or of death

One day He will hold out His hand to me and say “It is time”

Will it be bitter sweet, will I be ready

“If you follow me now you will be ready than with no regrets” He sends me.

Time seems short to me

“We have all eternity” He laughs

My Love, My Lord, My guide

On Facebook I often see memes saying that a loved one is ‘at peace’ or ‘resting’ after physical death.  This is a false teaching.

We are symbiotic creatures part animal and part Spirit.  We have this trait in common with every other physical entity or ‘thing’ on earth.

Our bodies carry our genes and the memories of our physical ancestors.  The immortality of the body is via the genes passed on to the next generation.

Our individual bodies have consciousness and the body fears death.  As you develop spiritually your eternal soul will be able to link with your physical consciousness enabling you to calm the bodies fears of death.  The body will know that it’s life force will continue because it has merged with the deathless soul.

How is this done?  Meditation and devotion.

As I’ve stated in past posts the non-physical  realms greatly outnumber the physical.  Once we graduate from earth most of us will find ourselves in one of the realms created, maintained and controled by a Deity.

These entities have traveled this path before us.  Some of these realms are almost as physical as our earth such as the Nine Worlds of the Norse.  Others are very light like the bright lands of the Buddha’s

Wherever you go don’t expect a lot of rest.  Sure you will be given time to acclimate to your new life and to go over the lifetime you just completed.  This will be followed by fully entering into a new reality with new responsibilities, new challenges and a new course of learning and growth.

Aren’t you glad! When I was a child I wondered about heaven.  It was better than eternal torture but spending eternity singing the praises of a God sounded horribly boring. Not to mention  terrifying. What if you should have a single critical thought about this God?  Off to eternal torture for you now.

Fortunately the Deities would find an afterlife like that to be as horrific as we do.  The Xians didn’t just get it wrong those who wanted to profit from the fears of the people literally made it up and distroyed both the people and the writings of those who taught the true teachings of the Hebrew Christ.

The Deities expect you to get angry with them.  They expect you to have sexual thoughts .. yes even about them.  You will not be punished for it this is a normal part of being and it is a normal, expected and necessary part of your growth.

There is no eternal punishment and there is no eternal rest.  There is eternal growth and learning.

Even the Gods are growing and learning.  It’s  not a one way thing this relationship between Deities and us.  The teacher learns and grows while teaching.  You and I will be called on to teach, to heal, to help those beneath us in power and knowledge.

The reason I became a vegetarian was that I asked for help and a Goddess answered.  She said to me “you want mercy, kindness and help from those above you? From the Gods?”  I said yes I do and she told me “Than show mercy and kindness to those below you … do not eat other animals ..do not harm them …do your best to treat them as you would want to be treated by those above you …understand?”

As above so below.  I took my life vow to Her and I  highly recommend it to all.

So what is death?  What happens when you die?

Simply this.  Your body no longer functions so you exit the body.  Your natural state is that of an Orb. ” Every man and woman is a star”.  You are a ball of light, energy and consciousness.

Upon exiting the body you will be met by those whom you most hope and expect to see.  There will be a guide, a pschopomp these are entities that will bring you safely to whatever realm you are supposed to go to.

Once there you will be greeted by healing and helpful entities who will stay with you while the Lords of Karma go over your life review.

After your life review you get some down time …with consuling so that you can understand what you did well and where you went wrong.

You will than either go back into this world for another incarnation or you will go to a different reality. Either way you will continue to exist, you will continue to be you and you will continue to grow and learn.

It is my hope that I will go to my Lord Anpu and serve Him rather than returning to this world.

Many of the Deities are holding psychic exit signs. The great teachers have told us there is a way off the wheel of rebirth.  Listen, meditate, keep the Deity always in the forefront of your mind.  Always see your God/Goddess with your third eye.  With every inbreath and out breath breath in the God/Goddess and breath out spiritual and physical toxins.  This will get you where your soul wants to go.

No I’m not there yet myself.  I am as imperfect as you are.

The way is difficult but it is worth the effort.

May your journey bring you to the reality (dimension) that you hope to attain.

Blessings now and Always

Hail Anpu!

My Sweet Lord!